Alone

Melancholy of mind embraces me, alone
To suffocate me in forlorn misery, alone
bereft, dark, hopelessly, alone
to ponder on my wretchedness
increases my disdain at how pointless
it is to live this tawdry life, alone.

With self hate my only friend, alone
my faults like water drown me, alone
there is but one answer, alone
I struggle to keep afloat but discontent
fills my fractured mind with terminal intent –
I am suicidal, alone.

Resolution, firm conviction, alone
will end my lonely grief, alone
will let me sink into blessed nothingness, alone
can death can release me from earthly bonds
of nothingness intensely prolonged –
I shall die with a smile, alone.

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